She cannot forget her relative with whom she was engaged in sexual foreplay
14-3-2010 | IslamWeb
Question:
How can i put my thoughts away from a man whom i have loved so dearly for nothing but my exposure. I do hold on tight to the rope of Allah but times comes when i'm totally ditched out. And then there's no saviour. I read Quran so much to avoid such thoughts. But once in a week, i do get it and then there's no stopping. I'm all the same before i stopeed
What i need to do to ask forgiveness for the such which also involved sharing naked pics. I have had also allowed him to touch me everywhere. But we haven't committed zina.I'm still a virgin and will get marry to one pious man soon. But i feel i m inappropriate for him.
Sometimes, i feel i m nothing but filth and dirt so i shouldnt be praying or reciting or thinking of Allah, cuz i i have lost my value for him.
It's confusing. I know its wrong. and i stop myself but once in a while i slip. The guy is from my family so i m worried how we will face other in future.
Plz dont put this public.
Answer:
All perfect praise be to Allaah, The Lord of the Worlds. I testify that there is none worthy of worship except Allaah, and that Muhammad 
is His slave and Messenger.
First of all, we ask Allaah to bless you with ‘Eemaan (faith) and certainty and make you firm upon the truth.
You are obliged to take the initiative to repent and you should know that if you are sincere in your actions, Allaah will enable you to do them. So, He will accept your repentance and enable you to be firm on it. For more benefit, please refer to Fatwa 87903.
Moreover, you should know that the Mercy of Allaah is vast, so you should not let despair enter your heart, as Allaah Says (what means): {Say, “O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning] do not despair of the Mercy of Allaah. Indeed, Allaah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He Who is the Oft-Forgiving, the Most Merciful.}[Quran 39:53] For more benefit, please refer to Fataawa 88108 and 83055.
There are some objectives that you should endeavor to achieve, among which are the following:
a) Avoiding such tricky relationships.
b) Keeping company with righteous women.
c) Attending lectures and circles of knowledge.
As regards those thoughts that you have, they are from the devil who wants to drive you away from righteousness, so you should not pay attention to these whispers. You should continue to repel them and say: “Praise be to Allaah that the plots of the devil are nothing but whispers.”
If you are still attached to that first man, then there are some means to treat love sickness as explained in Fatwa 84544.
Also, you should remember that this man did with you what you said despite the fact that he is your relative, so you should not expect anything good from him.
As regards the other young man, since he is religious, you should accept him as a husband as the Prophet said: “If a man whose religion and moral character are pleasing to you proposes to you, then let him marry.” [At-Tirmithi]
Concerning your statement that you feel that you are inappropriate for him, if you mean that this is because of the sins you have committed, then this, on the contrary, should be a reason for accepting him as a husband so that he will help you in performing good deeds.
Moreover, you should know that a person who repents is like a person who has never committed a sin as confirmed in a Hadeeth of the Prophet . Rather, you should know that a person who repents, is beloved by Allaah; Allaah Says (what means): {Truly, Allaah loves those who turn unto Him in repentance.}[Quran 2:222]
Allaah Knows best.